YOU.

Stop trying to be every beautiful girl in magazines and billboards,

stop trying to “adjust” yourself for the world.
Dont you know?
You are so gorgeous.
Because you are you.

Stop feeding yourself with lies about “if only i had..”s
stop wishing for a better nose or another tone of skin or hair.
Can you really not see?
Every ridge and curve that forms your complexion is distinct. Beauty.

Stop praying for the skills someone else has. you have your own.

Embrace every small thing that makes you, you.

Be yourself. Love yourself.
Happiness is the seed you plant within your heart,

no one else does that for you.
So stop, just stop. 
Realize: You are already amazing.  

I hate you.

eight months have past.
when will this pain end?
i have loved you since the day i met you three years ago.
you used to look at me like i was the only one in the room.
you changed your attitude for me. you opened your mind to possibilities.
i have my moments as a great writer, but somehow when i write about you

i sound like such a fool. words don’t begin to express what i feel.
look at me, letting go of what i want.

but it’s not that simple. it never is. you cared so much it turned into controlling.

the walls around me caved in. i was being suffocated. i am not a conventional girl.

birds were not meant for cages. birds were meant to fly.
you are the greatest thing that’s ever happened to me.
but i have to move on in order for us to have been worth it
no more crying in my sleep. and waking up thinking of you.
no more skipping a heart beat when i see you around. no more kissing others in vain solely to regain the past with you.

you have a place in my heart.. you always will. i love you.
now i just need to learn to live without you.